because i know you're wondering. maybe.

Last Tuesday I posted this status update on Facebook.

And man alive, did I start getting the texts and the messages asking me what's up with that? What's going on?

So...this is an attempt to condense something that's really long and the past four months or so of my life into something that you can read and won't want to scrape your eyeballs out after having done so. :)

So...you only have your job for 30 more days? 
Yep. Something like that. It's more like...25 days now. Mind you this happened a week ago.  My dad asked the question, "So you don't have a job in 30 days?"

My answer? I don't have this job in 30 days. I truly believe God will provide whatever job I'm supposed to have.

What's the deal? Do you not like your job? Do you not like the people you work with?
Short answer? The past 4 months or so God and I have been having some major convos. For anyone that's met me in real life, you know I'm a people person. I love me some people. They don't even have to like me, and I like them. I just think they're the coolest. My current job has about zero percent interaction with people {besides my co-workers}. I like accounting, I just like people more. And so I feel He's calling me to something that has to do with people. I'm not sure if accounting will be involved or not.

And I do like the people I work with. I don't just like them, I love them. They are fun and caring and I never knew your co-workers could be your family. So...don't think that I'm leaving because of them. They rock. I will miss them terribly. And I will visit. I'm sure.

So what are you going to be doing? 
Ummm....good question.

No seriously, that is not an answer. What are you going to be doing? 
I don't exactly know. My guess is since God has put this huge desire in my heart to work with people and have an impact on their lives for His glory, that it'll be something with people. In what capacity you ask? No clue. Teaching accounting? Working on a church staff {in a collegiate or women's ministry role?}? Being a secretary? Working at the local Christian bookstore? Be a back up singer for someone awesome? These are all things that have gone through my head. But I truly, truly, do not know.

Are you staying in Mississippi? 
I have no idea. I'd like to stay in Mississippi. I love my people here. I love my church family. I love my real actual family. I love them all. If God had me move away, I'd be sad at the beginning but I know it'd be better for me because He wants that. And His ways are best.

Are you freaking out?
Well...when my manager and I first had the conversation that brought this about a week and a half ago, I have to say that I didn't know it would all go down like this. That this is the way God was leading me into whatever He has next for me. That being said, the first weekend that I knew about this, I had about a bajillion bumps pop up on my chin and a few mouth ulcers that HURT.. {TMI? Maybe. Moving on.}My dad used to say those were caused by worry, but I think it has more to do with stress. Those have died down. Thankfully. And I've tried to take that fear of the unknown and place it at the cross every time it pops up. Sometimes it's an every 5 minutes thing and other days it's a once a day thing. But I don't think I've had a "complete meltdown, my life is over and God has forsaken me" kind of thing.

How are you not completely freaking out? You have bills to pay. You might be crazy and should get checked out by a mental health professional. 
First off? Rude! Secondly, I've kept going back to God's sovereignty. He rules over everything. He holds everything together. Everything I go through is for my good and His glory. He will not forsake me. He has plans for me. He will finish what He started in me. He is faithful. Acknowledging those things? Giving Him credit for bringing me to this so He can bring me through this {thanks Priscilla}? They've all helped tremendously.

I went to a conference last weekend and on the bus ride up we watched a video on the story of JJ Jasper and the loss of his 5 yr old son. When breaking the news of his son's death to his oldest daughter, he told her something to the affect of "you have to cling to every good thing you know about God and His Son, Jesus Christ." I guess that's what I'm doing. Do I think the loss of a job is equivalent to losing a child? By no means. But, we all have our battles. For the time being, this is mine.

What can I do besides ask questions? 
Pray. That I would continue to seek God, that I'd continue to have the faith to believe He will work everything out, for the fear to roll away, for discernment. I dunno, whatever you feel like praying for I guess :)

What's your favorite reality show - DWTS or AI?
DWTS. Hands down. I never knew I'd love that show so much. It's all my sister and mother's fault. I'm pulling for Ralph and Kirstie this season. And Hines. That guy is full of LIFE and SHOWMANSHIP. And I love it.

Love it.

Got more questions? Fire away in the comments.  I'll think about answering. ;)

P.S. I heard this song for the first time this weekend and the bridge has been stuck in my head. It's true ya know. Very true.